Paths not Taken

 

Paths not Taken

Our life is a day-to-day thing.  We wake up if we are lucky, get out of bed, and go about our day.  But if we forget to sit for a moment on the edge of dream and wakefulness, we stumble, lurch, and sway our way to the bathroom, to the first cup of tea or coffee. We are unprepared.

I was unprepared this morning. I didn’t do the ritual of feet over the bed, rotating my ankles, breathing slow breaths and giving gratitude for being. I lost my way, thinking of only getting to the bathroom to pee.  It was unnecessary. My bladder was not full. I could have waited to equalize myself with the world and I would not have spun my way against the walls, the counter in the bathroom to sit down on the toilet.  Just so you know. I am unhurt, there is nothing wrong with my balance, my body but when you are not fully awake you forget how to operate in this so-called reality of dreams. Spirit does not recognize walls. It is after all myself, the wide awake being in this house of miracles' task to set the pace, to make the choices or not for the day. My body needs reminders.

I thought about the stumbling, my unorganized movements during my walk this morning.  Even the loud chatter of the birds did not disrupt my thoughts for maybe a minute. Yes, I gave the morning events before my walk a minute before my attention turned to cacophony of the birds in numerous trees greeting the day. I was equally rewarded by flowers wild and domestic blooming flowers, trees, and shrubs along the way. I thought of how each footstep was a blessing to the earth. I wonder how my blessings could reach the essence of the Mother through the concrete sidewalk until I remember the sand, the rock, the water it takes to make the structures are part of the earth.  I smiled, I walked, I blessed.

Sometimes, I think about the paths not taken, beneath shady trees, along darken roads, places where my path was unclear but somehow, I walked through, I gained ground.  I am still gaining ground. I am adjusting my thoughts, forgetting, and forgoing the stuff thrusted upon me.  How I should be, what I can or not do?  I found a lovely thought.  If I do not get it done now, I will continue down another life among the paths not taken.