Paths
not Taken
Our life is a day-to-day thing. We wake up if we are lucky, get out of bed,
and go about our day. But if we forget
to sit for a moment on the edge of dream and wakefulness, we stumble, lurch,
and sway our way to the bathroom, to the first cup of tea or coffee. We are
unprepared.
I was unprepared this morning. I didn’t do the ritual
of feet over the bed, rotating my ankles, breathing slow breaths and giving
gratitude for being. I lost my way, thinking of only getting to the bathroom to
pee. It was unnecessary. My bladder was
not full. I could have waited to equalize myself with the world and I would not
have spun my way against the walls, the counter in the bathroom to sit down on
the toilet. Just so you know. I am
unhurt, there is nothing wrong with my balance, my body but when you are not
fully awake you forget how to operate in this so-called reality of dreams.
Spirit does not recognize walls. It is after all myself, the wide awake being
in this house of miracles' task to set the pace, to make the choices or not for
the day. My body needs reminders.
I thought about the stumbling, my unorganized
movements during my walk this morning.
Even the loud chatter of the birds did not disrupt my thoughts for maybe
a minute. Yes, I gave the morning events before my walk a minute before my attention
turned to cacophony of the birds in numerous trees greeting the day. I was
equally rewarded by flowers wild and domestic blooming flowers, trees, and
shrubs along the way. I thought of how each footstep was a blessing to the
earth. I wonder how my blessings could reach the essence of the Mother through
the concrete sidewalk until I remember the sand, the rock, the water it takes
to make the structures are part of the earth.
I smiled, I walked, I blessed.
Sometimes, I think about the paths not taken, beneath
shady trees, along darken roads, places where my path was unclear but somehow,
I walked through, I gained ground. I am
still gaining ground. I am adjusting my thoughts, forgetting, and forgoing the
stuff thrusted upon me. How I should be,
what I can or not do? I found a lovely
thought. If I do not get it done now, I will
continue down another life among the paths not taken.
